Tell It to my Broken Heart

like the feeling of drowing under water, I can't quite get back up
trying my best to fight death, I'm only thinking about the me being without you
and yet, I'm already without you

going back and forth in my mind as to why I'm still holding unto you
wanting so bad to date and try new things, but I'm reverting back to the old me
crying constantly at the fact of you loving someone new
thinking of you and her making love, enjoying each other's company
I reminisce on how good you used to treat me, wondering if you're doing the same with her
trying my hardest to hold back the tears, leading to my misery
understanding and knowing that I feel like nothing without you
sounding so desperate and incomplete, I hear the voice of  the wise speak
"let your heart heal honey," is what they tell me
"you've got your whole life," is what they suggest
tomorrow is not promise, so those things are just lies told to sothe the pain of a heartbroken woman

why must I be alone, especially when I have so much to offer
knowing that I was your first lover
can tell you anything that you want to know about you, because I was there to know you
missing my best friend, my lover, my one
telling myself that I don't need you for anything
and yet, I'm lying to myself again
missing the times when you used to hold me, kissing me so passionately and sweet
missing the times when I was your main concern, and you were the priority
missing the times when our heartbeats were always matching no matter how far apart we were
missing the times when we discussed our future
missing the times when it was us against the world
missing the innocence of young love
missing us

tell my broken heart to patch itself back up
to stitch away the pain, hurt, and loss
tell it to dismiss the memories that we once shared
the true passion and love of us
tell it that it must never love again, only to escape the heartbreak
because it's true that the love is lost

tell everything to my broken heart as to why it keeps holding onto you....

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