I keep telling myself that I am a big girl, I do not need daddy here with me
but tell that to the little girl within me who only wants to play with that little boy within him
tell her that she cannot have what she wants
tell her that he does not want to play with her anymore, and watch her cry
watch her ambitions burn in flames
watch her heart turn into coal.....
you would think at my age I would be over the whole "daddy" theme in a man
but the truth is, wanting a "daddy" within a man is what makes my heart beat faster,
knowing how it feels to be loved by a real man is something I have not had the experience to enjoy
but I know how it feels to be spoiled with the attention that you deserve, including the love
having a masculine and dominant being there that knows how to be sensitive and sweet,
where would such a man be?
having someone who believes in business and order, but can unwind and have a good time, too
is such a man like that around?
having someone who is willing to correct me, while molding me to a better woman
could that be a person only of my fantasy?
thinking of my heart, I cannot leave out the young girl within me
my father raised her to be a woman, but at times he still would find time...
find time to love her, spoil her, encourage her, and understand her struggles
it is almost like two different girls stay in the same body
while one is developing herself to be better within society,
the other is waiting for the hero just like her father
never could the two mature together, never could the two agree on one man
my past revealed two opportunities for such a desire of mine,
but I have allowed my "grown" self to ruin those moments
wanting control so much, but not willing to them steer my ship
however, that little girl just wanted attention, but the grown girl would not let that side show
why?
because she's hurting, too
but, she's too prideful to admit that she wants to be loved by daddy, too
Daddy's Little Girl
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De'Shundra Gibson, All Rights Reserved
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