Love, Free Like a Bird

love, free like a bird

I'm finally able to give my heart a rest
tears of joy fall unto my breast like a badge of honor
for I know that my dark cries and dramatic episodes are finally over

I'm free...

at peace with myself, content with my struggle with love within
could I possibly be cursed, only to be marked as a beast for future romances
honestly, I feel as though it's all in my head
in fact, I can move on without you
in fact, I can love without you

considering my circumstances, I'm able to look at the mirror fully
light weight as a feather, my heart is finally at rest
I don't feel as if I'm holding on to something that isn't there
no longer do I feel as if I'm the victim in the crime that we call love
holding my heart in my hand, I've carved an insertion for the key in my life
not thinking that we will be like we once were, I have to learn to love again
letting go of the hatred and past beneath us, I'm ready to move forward to something better
caught in the middle of my sense and my emotions, I'm not sure what else I should do

thinking clearly, I understand that I can have it both: love and you
the question arises as to how come, but I beg to side with the idea that there is love without you
there is peace without you
there is joy without you
there is....is....me, without you
do I love you more than I love myself?
do I love you more than I love God?
always taking your feelings into consideration, it's hard for me to not be predictable
for as I know that one minute I want one thing, but another I want something else
I don't feel as though the saga will never end,
because we're always looking for each other in other people


the love within me for you in undying
and yet, I am sick of all of the arguing and crying
despite the words that I transgress from my desires, it's easily to see that you love with your mind
love with your mind? never could I be this way for I love with my heart
constantly taking risk with my love because I thought that you would always understand
putting myself out there to be hurt constantly, because you hold back out of fear
I can't continue to go back and forth with the same dramatic episodes,
knowing that the game called "love" that we play can be so cold

constantly fighting for your forgiveness
constantly fighting for your acceptance
constantly fighting for your love, I refuse to do anymore

I can't read your mind, please open your mouth and tell me what you wanting
hiding behind your nonchalant attitude is getting me nowhere
stop acting as if you don't need, because God made us all creatures of love, sex, and human nature
loving you has been an uphill battle, that I have lost for the last few years
loving you has been an uphill battle, because I know that I'm as difficult to have to deal...with
loving you has been an uphill battle, simply knowing you as I know myself

knowing myself
knowing my wealth
knowing my worth
knowing all too well the feeling of pain and hurt, you tell me that you love me.....

you tell me that you love me, but act opposite
I can't be angry because I allow you to act as you please
comprising my needs and truth, never that
as a matter of fact, you can have that back
never thought I would love someone so much
just to want to feel the urgency of your touch, all over my body
damn boy, you were my heroin, cocaine, and pain medication

but, I think I love me more
to know that another man has something better in store
always channeling back to you, I'll leave that to the young crowd of girls
as a woman growing, I know that I deserve the greatest that God can give
I'm letting him have his way, because I want to further give...love to a man that is for me

love, free like a bird
I can finally fly and breathe.

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De'Shundra Gibson, All Rights Reserved